Saturday, April 17, 2010

What's A Girl to Do?


Today I received an email congratulating me on my acceptance into one of the most prestigious universities in my state. Talk about major excitement! After calling my parents, grandparents, and "adoptive mothers", I texted my best friend. Not to tell her of my acceptance, but to ask about our lunch plans. Of course she'd canceled on me yet again. Sometime in the middle of our conversation I asked if she had checked her acceptance decision yet (she'd applied to the same university), she had not. After that I never heard back. She didn't get in, and I don't know what to tell her. This is something entirely out of my control, and something she has every right, I suppose, to be upset (or even jealous) about. This feeling though, of getting something someone so badly wants, it's difficult. I won't stop being excited for myself, but knowing that this was/is my second choice school (the other does't send decisions for another month)...I just don't know what to tell her. I wish I did. This just isn't something that words can make better. Especially not words coming from me.

Now is not the time I need to not have one of my best friends not speaking to me! There are things going on that I've never been through, and she has. One of those times that only someone who knows you better than you know yourself can really understand. Not having that...I think I'll go mad. If it wasn't for all this dratted homework I've put off I'd be at her door tomorrow with food and a chai tea. Okay, or at least a really big bar of dark chocolate. Alas, homework keeps me on the island (distance is never an issue in such personal matters). That and a broken foot. Not fun let me tell you. A hazard of being a martial artist. Unfortunately dedication to training is what is now keeping me from training for nearly a month.

Well, it's very nearly 3am and I'm prattling on. Definitely not a philosophical post this go-'round. 2010 is shaping up to be quite the year, and it's not even one-quarter through!

Peace,
Elina

The photograph above is from the famous library at Trinity College, Dublin.

In continuing with the disjointed, random post:
A favorite of mine from a fairly well known Irish band, The Script.

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