Roommates, Road Trips and Roasts

So yesterday my roommate told me that the lock on our room was being replaced as she had misplaced (lost) her keys. And to be honest, I was annoyed. Yes, upset and annoyed. I mean, I've misplaced my keys before, but have always found them. Mostly I find it absolutely wondrous that you can lose a set of keys attached to a wallet. Now, I wasn't really sure why I was bothered by this. I certainly didn't have to pay for a new key. I wasn't the one who may have lost things in a wallet. And then I realized...I have been holding an unconscious thought of allowing the other person(s) to live in my room as opposed to our room. Perhaps this has to do with the fact that I've never had to share a room in my life, or maybe it is because my current roommate asked to live with me as opposed to being assigned. Honestly, I'm not sure. But I have been viewing this space as mine, and that I am simply kind enough to let the other person have some space too.

What the hell was I thinking?!

I didn't even realize till late last night (or maybe it was earlier today) that this was the way I have been viewing this. It's all these discussions about "unrealized privilege" and such that we're covering in my classes. Not that this is a situation of the advantaged and disadvantaged at all. But it's similar in its own right. At this point, I'm not really sure what I can do with this revelation to change my thinking/attitude. First I need to figure out why I'm view having a roommate in this way. It certainly has been quite the adjustment! Living with someone that is.

Yet it's kinda not totally like having a roommate since she's never here on the weekends. She heads home on her soul searching. In which I wish her luck. I wish she'd let Campus Health help her with it too though. There's no shame in going there for counseling, and there's some really great, helpful people there. Anyone noticed the change in the blog tone? Yeah, good folks.

While adjusting (even though it's been 6 months already) living with someone has been quite stressful. However, something bigger is approaching again. That's right folks! It's midterm time again (almost). That means there's papers due, reading to be done, notes to be transcribed, homework to be done, textbooks & flashcards to study, and of course, tests to take. We've been very fortunate that this absolutely gorgeous weather we're having *knocks on wood that it sticks around* has helped relieved some of the anxiety that is related to this time of year. But that being said, I haven't been home since the start of the semester and I'm really looking forward to Spring Break (Two Weeks!!!). A friend of mine and I are also considering driving south this weekend to a beach that's a couple hours closer than home. Although gas is getting really expensive again ($3.19 last weekend. Ouch!), it's nice to just get off campus and as far out of this town as you can go. Although we'd probably have to take homework with us, it'd be worth it to study on the beach in 70° (okay 67° but 70° sounds so much better) weather. Here's hoping we can both get enough accomplished tonight and tomorrow so we can go!

And with that thought it's time to put the pork loin in the oven and hop in the shower. "Ab"solution class killed tonight!! Owww!

Keep lovin' every day y'all!

Peace,

Elina